worn out cog

These days, i've been working quite hard and it's only getting harder.

Normally i'd complain and go on and on about life being a bitch... tonight it's different. I can sort of see where i want to go and where all this effort is being put into.

I understand now it's because i'm consistently juggling friends, uni, family and work that is making me feel worn. I didn't see Jay Wong for his borthday today, and i still feel terrible about it.

The list keeps going on and on with endless birthday's and bbq's and next up is Helen.
Well, i'm not THAT bad because i arranged for Allan and myself to meet up at Jay's place but when we arrived... the house and the street was quiet. We went around back and the bbq was packed and no one was talking which obivously indicates the group is not around of playing a prank... but this is too immature and too quiet to be true. A phone call soon after revealed that everyone went to Edithvale beach which was the direction and suburb we were at!

So, at the time it didn't seem worthwhile because i got the impression they were only going for a cruise and are coming back so naturally we went to Gracies bbq. It was a really nice homey feel bbq. Quiet but i really liked it. I felt i could really unwind and just... well smell and eat bbq!

I suspected that Gracie might seem a little bummed out because her intention was to have friends over as a get together as some has not seen each other for a long time. I felt the same way too, and i could see the effort she put into it, she made the calls and reminded everyone and from her part she did nothing wrong but there was only Allan, myself and Gracies friend and her boyfriend which made the grand total of 5.

It showed that Gracie had the best intention and i now feel there is so much sincerity and sentiment in her i didn't realise was there. Found out today Gracie's an artist!!! Which was the biggest shock and suprise because i've known that girl for... god knows how long now only to find out now... guess it'll just mean we'll have more to tlak about than alcohol and parties.

PLenty of food there was and it was consumed relatively quickly upon the arrival of Lam, Tuan, John, Chris and suprisingly old friend Troung dropped by near the end.

Suprisingly Troung is really into Sprinters and shares the same love and respect for them as i do!!! So naturally my little 86 copped a bit of a fang session.

Speaking of 86, i have decided to shower my baby with gifts:

-Fibreglass JDM sideskirts
-Dashmat

and maybe later down the track, whiteline strutbrace!!

I've considered the following modifications too, a 20 valve quad throttle body (which requires an adapter plate and re-tuned ECU) OR a simple air filter (K&N, because they preformed really well in my R33).

Parts also considered is even extractors and a new muffler (i'm sick of the zingy sound).
All is well i suppose, i've finished the major assignment from my management component with a accounting test in a couple of hours (Lord have mercy on my uneducated accounting soul).

Tuan said, "it's all with time management" and i still believe that. I hope he appreciate to know that i've always taken the advice of Tuan all my life.

Well, time calls for final cigarette before lights out and i face the world again... perhaps i'll take nathan on his offer to go unwind at the spas and massage parlour. Speaking of Nathan, i can see in his eyes he feels the same as i do, though we function normally on the outiside he is really worn on the outside because he has opened up a new bedding warehouse about 3 minutes from my house. Needless to say this is the regular hang out for the boys with frequent visits including Fatty and Petey. It's really really good to see Peter again.

oh yeh, i got fined again by the cops for switching lanes (there was a parked car)... i don't know... i don't care.
Least of my troubles at the moment... they can eat it for all i care... i sound very empty these days don't i?

-Jay