Fujiwara Pizza Shop

Yep, delivering pizza for my uncle in my AE86.

The downhill ferntree gully specialist!!!
Yeah right!

I made 38 bucks tonight which could really comes in handy in this time of great need.
I calculated and it would seem i'm in ultra-debt and might be more-so because has asked to push for a more bigger and modern beach house. Not that i'm against it or anything but it'll cost 40 bucks each from Chow and i.

It was my first cruisey for a long time by myself and i've never really felt that kind of liberty in a long long time. Except this time i'm packin' heat and got 30 minutes to arrive because they got angry at me, the starved obese customers that is. They were really nice and i got 3 dollars in tips... YES!
I drove and i just felt so relaxed, i had crappy NOVA playing the (s)hits and watching the streetposts go by, and feels as though time just complete comes to a pause and there's a halt on everything. When i was driving i wasn't concerned about my assignments and reading i had to do for uni, life's careers choices didn't matter except this genuine feeling of bliss. It made me smile so much i almost started laughing, and i realise how stupid it sounds now and how "high" or "stoned" i might've looked a the time but nothing can explain it.

I'm sure i was a funny sight to other motorists who stopped next to me, seeing this idiotic asian in a "Pizza Haven" hat just laughing to himself, no handsfree ear piece, no music playing.

Most people would probably say "You're gay chung" or "Who cares?" Today's people around me disappoint me that they can't find happiness in the simplest nature. My reply to those would be well, in you're world you stress and worry constantly, althought i do too and makes me seem hipercritical, i've found my peace and moment where nothing hurts or affects me. Maybe i'm become arrogant but sometimes people seems the same to me, all the faces somehow resemble everyone else.

Back to reality and i was talking to someone close to me who alledgedly claims he has fallen victim to office politics.

Welcome to my world 2003.
Every word that came out and i could see that one of the worst traits i've ever seen is greed. It makes what was good people, well questionably good people insane and the extent they'd betray their own morales and kindness towards others in their own quest for success. I'm so sick of pricks in the working environment who'd just be real ... cunts cuz they are, to get what they want. Everyone want's something for nothing and when it goes wrong they always forward the blame.

fuck that, you fucked up you take responsibility. Perhaps those who've fallen victims to this bullshit understands exactly where i'm coming from; and for those who don't i say the same advice as i do to everyone else which is leave the person you are at home, in the office or work where it's a competition, you have to play or you don't win and become an emotionless cold shell.

Pity are those who seek comfort in dominating, shattering others dreams in order to reach ones own.
You're life is as meaningless as the people you hurt.
I'll be damned the moment i truly befriend someone like that. Why am i so introverted? Well i guess i've found my answer. I guess psychologically, i'm less likely to be receptive to new people because i fear they're like everyone else. Urgh!

Pfft anyway,  i got a letter from VicRoads and i shitted myself because i thought my sneaky mother would open and see the fine i got, but it was a renewal letter regarding my full license. Nothing reminds you better that you're an old fart than you full license. Gotta sleep now, work at 7am tomorrow with Lam.

Money is hard... life is hard

-Jay